A "Good" Fight

I have not had one of those in a while..... A good fight**.... The kind that builds intimacy...

The kind of fight where you go to the very edge but then rush towards each other again as if it was end of the world....the kind of fight where you expose the most vulnerable raw part of you but you are not afraid to.....because there is an all-accepting embrace at the end of it.....The fight which breaks all the expectations and then builds new ones.....The dialogue that you have with yourself and you know will lead to trouble when you say it loud and still it comes spilling out of you....and when it does you realize half of those things that you planned to say never came out......because they were not needed.....there is an intense gaze that says "It's OK.. I love you...I may not always say so but I do....Not despite of your faults but sometimes because of them....I love you because you are you....."

The kind of fight that muddles with your brains and shakes the very core of you...where at the end you are left both utterly exhausted and exhilarated.... The kind of fight that leaves you flushed, blushed and very chuffed.... The one which makes you want to announce to the world how great your fight was but also the kind which makes you want to shut up and keep it private just for your own self....and smile your mysterious smile and feel very smug about yourself....

you know what I am talking about? Wait.....do you? I walk to the other room where he is working on his laptop and I ask him "What according to you is a good fight?"

A good fight is the one that leads to make-up sex.....Great make-up sex

Hmm thats one way of putting it.....

I definitely want me one of  those


** Again inspired by the amazing Natasha Badhwar http://www.livemint.com/articles/2012/07/27202529/The-perfect-anniversary-gift.html

An ode to my baby

it has been a long silence on the blog.......just going thru mundane routine.....waiting for sometthing exciting to happen....waiting for someone to come and lift me up from this laziness.....some inspiration....just feeling shitty actually


last few weeks have been bad....the help was absconding....i was not keeping well....and also the big move is looming on our heads.....so there are boxes everywhere....and there is a bitter after taste of fever in my mouth.....all in all a shitty position to be in.....but in all this....Arav has been a darling....i couldnt believe how sensitive can a 3 yr old be.... he is taking care of me....he gets me blanket if i get cold...he runs to get water when i ask him to....he is playing on his own without asking for anything.....I am truly amazed....and very very proud of him....

He asked me yesterday Mamma aap sad kyu ho? i said baby i have fever...ok how will you feel better he asked....by taking some rest..... ok jao rest karo....i will play and then i will come sleep next to you....aap jao.... And every now and then he is telling me aap bahut ache ho aap mere friend ho....before goin to bed he told Fairy god mother mamma ko jaldi se thik kar do....

Aru baby i just want to you to know i'm very grateful to have you as my baby..... I must have done something very right in my past lives that God has made me your mamma....

i hope to feel better soon....and be your good mamma again