Finding my mountain

Nothing invokes the writer in me as June does. With its cool breeze, surprise rains, and all things lush its such a great tease. Also birthday. two birthdays actually.

This birthday as is the tradition we took off . Two crabs comfortable in our own shells. We went to the mountains. To the closest ones actually. It was beautiful. This journey that the two of us have been on countless times still feels new. We were here as newly engaged love birds. We held hands through out the 3 hours road journey. Losing sight of the road many times because of all the deep gazing in each others eyes. We stopped at various peaks. We let the clouds envelope us. We carried a book with us.  "Notes to myself "I read out random lines and we discussed what it means to each of us currently. I discovered that mushrooms do taste earthy and nice. I discovered how much I love the cool breeze in my hair. I realized I was being swept off my feet right there. And it was a beautiful heady feeling. 

We kept visiting this mountain through all these years. We came back with our first born. We came with our families. We came with two boys. Every trip was fun in its own way. We found ourselves back on this trip without the kids this time. It was different but beautiful. There were long silences and no need to fill them up. I thought we would catch up on all important talks that we cant have with two hyper active kids jumping around. But turned out we didn't have much. Whenever we did speak the conversation steered back to our kids. I think its easier to discuss life's important plans and decisions with two boys screaming in the background. The silence of the mountains is best saved for some inner introspection. I also thought we would catch up on the sleep. But those extra soft beds and the extreme proximity to trees and insects didn't help. 

This resort had a well stocked library facing the mountain. I found The old man and the sea. A classic that i only know of but never read. I knew i wouldn't finish it but i still started reading. That evening i got sad thinking about all the books i haven't read and all the movies i haven't seen and all the places i haven't been to. I felt like i haven't spend enough time with my parents and people i love so much. I felt like a lot of my 32 years had gone wasted. I thought about all the food i haven't tasted especially desserts. 

I was quite gloomy till i remembered the conversation i had few nights ago with my 6 year old. Before we go to bed each night we have to say things we are thankful for. He said i'm thankful for the 5 star i got in school today it really made my day. I asked him is that it or does he want to add anything more. He said no today i'm just happy about this. I'm completely happy about this. So yea I decided to be completely happy about the gorgeous place I was at. Also found a beautiful crab while walking back to the room . I stopped to click him and he looked right at me. I took it as a sign :)

Crab to crab

I have always been a lover of beaches but this mountain has found a special place in my life. Beach makes me gregarious while the mountain humbles me down. 

Those who travel to mountain-tops are half in love with themselves, and half in love with oblivion.