A note to my 16 year old self

On the eve of turning  the big 3  0 i thought it will be fun to write a letter to my 16 year old self.  I remember my 16th birthday it wasnt very long ago it was a nice rainy day like every year. I was the last among my friends to turn 16. There was eating out and getting wet in the rain and bhutta and backstreet boys songs involved. So in short it was the best of times. Anyways back to the letter

Dear sweet sixteen Shweta

1. 30 is not old. Seriously nor is 40 or 50. And definetly not 20

2. You have amazing curly hair. You just dont know how to wear them. Domt worry you will learn . Stop ironing them

3. You will get married at 22. It will be an arranged marriage. You will become the ultimate marwari housewife. (Yeah sounds unbelievable right?)

4. You will not be fat atleast. Well except when you are expecting and after giving birth and few years in between

5. You will be mom to 2 boys. Yup thats right. Dont worry they are adorable.

6. You will never use trigonometry, statistics, accounts, derivatives, or pretty much all other things you are studying right now in your life.

7. Dont aspire to become a cpa or a cfa. Try to find a career that will let you work from home. Dont scorn. In not so far future u will be grateful for this advice

8. You will teach music to kids. Right? How on earth did that happen? Music? Kids?

9. The friends you are spending a lot of time with right now will not bother to keep in touch. They wont come to your wedding. Wont even add you on facebook. Wait you dont know whats facebook. Its ok.. You will soon find out

10. Dont worry you will make new friends. Some of them will be there for you always.

11. The cute guy u have a crush on will become fat and lose hair. I know this through facebook. U will see.

12. You will realise no one can love you more than your parents. Also that you love them so very much.

13. You will miss your siblings. Yup they get on your nerves but you will miss them when you are far from them

14. You will learn to bake. Yay!!

15. You will learn to love yourself a little more.

16. You will judge people far less.

17. You will become less ignorant but also less innocent.

18. But you will not become cynical. ( except when you are PMSing that doesnt change)

19. You will be hopelessly optimistic. You will always remain Gods fav child.

20. Your tastes will change. Your choices will differ

21. But you will continue to love rains, poems, books, friends tv show, dance and desserts

22. You will enjoy silences, walk in the park and your own company.

23. Your love affair with june will never end.

24. You will become pregnant in june. Twice. Thats right

25. You will marry someone who is born in june just like you

26. He will be nothing like you

27. But he will be a lot like you

28. He will not be anything like you expect him to be.

29. Which actually is a very good thing

30. There is no one youer than you. (Thats a line by dr. Seuss. You will find out who that is)

Love you
30 yr old Shweta

Summer afternoons

Hot humid sticky
never ending
long summer afternoons

switch off the TV quick
lets take a nap
pull the curtains
oh no hes done potty
bring me
the wipes quick

turn off the tv i said
n start the AC
its so bloody hot
hehehe u said bleddy
whatever close your eyes now

NOW

i give u five minutes
to sleep or else
ok start the fan and turn off the AC
and bring me my phone its ringing
dont pick it up

can u also fetch baby's blanket please?

ok now sleep its 3 already
i will wake u at 5 u have skating class
why arent u sleeping?

Mamma u give me 100 things to do
how will i sleep?

Ok sorry can i give you a hug?
No its too hot....goodnight

The Night Games

You move too much you take up all the place
It is a queens bed there is only so much space
The mattress at the foot of the bed
with blue and red spiderman spread
thats yours remember?

Its been more than a year
Since we kicked you out of our bed
but every night since then you are back
Your feet you hands on my face they go smack

But there is another one now
inside my belly
fourth one on a bed meant for two
as restless as adamant as you

There is kicking and snatching
and grumbling and screaming
both inside and outside
and there is 3am loo breaks
where my bladder threatens to burst
and 4am hunger pangs, heartburn and thirst

And 6am the phone alarm goes off
the other adult who was never invited in our party of three
a reluctant guest in our tug-of-war soiree
grumbles his way out of the bed

only then we sleep peacefully
him/her and you and I
And the sun trickles through the window
the light on your head it makes a halo
and you giggle

What? why are you giggling?
"Purple" you say
What is purple?
The sky
Is it?
Yes....Good Morning....